I hate it when I have so much to say and can't say it.

Because I have too much to put in here, my vlog post of 100 is going to be put aside. As Jenny said, that can be used for my post of 101 in tribute the the Dalmations. It's a strange reason, but I like it.

Today, my topics of choice are:

I haven't had much money in the past month. That is a complaint, and it's also a fact. Because of this, Christmas presents are going to be arriving at people's doors around February. Unless a miracle happens, that is. And, seeing it's the holiday's, perhaps it will. I'm hoping. Although receiving presents is amazing, and I love my friends and my family for being so kind and considerate and just plain awesome, I do feel a smidgen of douchness for not being able to give anything back. I'm doing my best to draw pictures and find cheap items, but so far it's been a challenge and I'm a bit out of luck.

Segueing from my previous topic, I am happy to say that I am going to be home for Christmas. I'll get to see my family again, and all those friends I've only been able to talk to via Skype. However, I'm not just coming home for the holidays. I'm moving back.

Victoria is amazing. I DO love it. The temperature, the humidity, the noise, the ocean. It's all wonderful, but it's not for me. Not right now. I thought it would be fun to live by myself in a big city. Move out from the family nest and start a life all my own. A month ago, when I broke the news to my parents, I was all over it. It'd be such an adventure! Well, I wasn't wrong there, it WAS an adventure, but one I'll admit right now that I wasn't ready for. Many things contributed to the situation I find myself in, but we don't need to go into detail about them. All that matters is that I came, I tried and I'm leaving, a changed and happy individual.

On another note: travelling back is going to take SO LONG. 18 hours. Ew. Hopefully Jenny can make it for the same day as me so we can get the discount and have someone to talk to instead of being bored out of our minds.

About a week ago, I received a call from an old friend, Jordan Teyke, who is currently a student at the Aveda Institute of Victoria. He wanted to know if I would volunteer as his model for this demonstration lesson. I happily agreed. After a few nervous inquiries from him as to cuts and styles and lengths, I calmed him down and told him that I would be good with whatever he wanted to do. I mean, I'm 18 years old. So what if it's short or weird or another color? I can just change it, or wait for it to grow out. (My hair grows pretty fast). This pleased him to no end (he actually bragged about me to his classmates. -rolls her eyes-) and we finalized the info. Yesterday, the 12th, I went in for the appointment. We were given refreshing tea and water, checked in, and then led up flights of stairs to a massive room. There were probably around 30 hairdressers there, all lined up in rows like inspectors. We all paired off to our respective stylists then and Jordan and I had our reunion. Hugs and laughter. Following a delightful shoulder and head massage he proceeded with the cut.

A lot happened in the 3 hours that I was there, but when it was all said and done with I didn't like it. Jordan agreed. It is medium-length and cutesy and bob-ish, which all leads to a big nono from me. Not my thing. But it's okay, really. I can live with it until I get the chance to cut it again. Which, might not be too long. I'm going back for his next test on Saturday, and he says that if I still don't like it by then, his wife will give me my own personal haircut all for free. I'm very excited about that.

I've been thinking of what I want done with hair for a while now. Even before that horrible haircut. What I am leaning towards right now... meaning what I REALLY, REALLY want to do is crop it and dye it off-white. Either that or copper. Being completely serious here. I want it one of these colors (the lighter ones) or a shade of copper and then cut it like so(sides) and so(top) - one of them. (None of those are all that close to what I want, but it's good enough for now.) I'm kind of designing my own. Thoughts? I really do want it. for the excitement and the drama and the coolness factor. And I think it would look good on me. I just don't know if I would regret cutting it that short. It would take a while to re-grow, even for me. So it's a big step.

Any comments would be enjoyed. Especially since this will theoretically take place in a week.

We all know I have changed. All of us change - have changed. I think the changes in me have happened mainly in the past year. I've become more outspoken and aggressive. In bad ways and in good. My mindset has changed. Main beliefs have stayed, but a few have wavered and swayed. I think differently now and I act differently. I speak differently. These changes are most likely to stick with me for a while now - if not the rest of my life, and I'm okay with that.

I just hope everyone else is. The relationships I have with my friends are likely to change. I'm not trying to sound conceited here. "Oh, when I change everything changes". No, not like that. I'm saying it could have an effect on the relationships I have with people, and I hope they are okay with it. I don't want to lose anyone.

+ AVATAR IS COMING TO THEATERS ON FRIDAY! -love-

+ I don't think I have enough food to make it through the week. So lunches will be cut out.

+ My lips are so effing chapped they dry out my mouth, and balm doesn't seem to be doing shit for them. I miss Burts.

+ It finally snowed in Victoria. For a whole 10 MINUTES! So exciting. Gives me a very, very, very small taste of what's at home.

+ I bought chips. and Sugar crisp.

+ I wish I could fly.

+ My cell phone is bugging me in various ways. I kind of want a different one. I wonder how I could make that happen.

+ If anyone feels like sending me a virtual hug, please do so. Or if you stalk me in real life, I'd be okay with actual hugs, too.

~K.L.

say something~

I hate it when I have so much to say and can't say it.

Because I have too much to put in here, my vlog post of 100 is going to be put aside. As Jenny said, that can be used for my post of 101 in tribute the the Dalmations. It's a strange reason, but I like it.

Today, my topics of choice are:

I haven't had much money in the past month. That is a complaint, and it's also a fact. Because of this, Christmas presents are going to be arriving at people's doors around February. Unless a miracle happens, that is. And, seeing it's the holiday's, perhaps it will. I'm hoping. Although receiving presents is amazing, and I love my friends and my family for being so kind and considerate and just plain awesome, I do feel a smidgen of douchness for not being able to give anything back. I'm doing my best to draw pictures and find cheap items, but so far it's been a challenge and I'm a bit out of luck.

Segueing from my previous topic, I am happy to say that I am going to be home for Christmas. I'll get to see my family again, and all those friends I've only been able to talk to via Skype. However, I'm not just coming home for the holidays. I'm moving back.

Victoria is amazing. I DO love it. The temperature, the humidity, the noise, the ocean. It's all wonderful, but it's not for me. Not right now. I thought it would be fun to live by myself in a big city. Move out from the family nest and start a life all my own. A month ago, when I broke the news to my parents, I was all over it. It'd be such an adventure! Well, I wasn't wrong there, it WAS an adventure, but one I'll admit right now that I wasn't ready for. Many things contributed to the situation I find myself in, but we don't need to go into detail about them. All that matters is that I came, I tried and I'm leaving, a changed and happy individual.

On another note: travelling back is going to take SO LONG. 18 hours. Ew. Hopefully Jenny can make it for the same day as me so we can get the discount and have someone to talk to instead of being bored out of our minds.

About a week ago, I received a call from an old friend, Jordan Teyke, who is currently a student at the Aveda Institute of Victoria. He wanted to know if I would volunteer as his model for this demonstration lesson. I happily agreed. After a few nervous inquiries from him as to cuts and styles and lengths, I calmed him down and told him that I would be good with whatever he wanted to do. I mean, I'm 18 years old. So what if it's short or weird or another color? I can just change it, or wait for it to grow out. (My hair grows pretty fast). This pleased him to no end (he actually bragged about me to his classmates. -rolls her eyes-) and we finalized the info. Yesterday, the 12th, I went in for the appointment. We were given refreshing tea and water, checked in, and then led up flights of stairs to a massive room. There were probably around 30 hairdressers there, all lined up in rows like inspectors. We all paired off to our respective stylists then and Jordan and I had our reunion. Hugs and laughter. Following a delightful shoulder and head massage he proceeded with the cut.

A lot happened in the 3 hours that I was there, but when it was all said and done with I didn't like it. Jordan agreed. It is medium-length and cutesy and bob-ish, which all leads to a big nono from me. Not my thing. But it's okay, really. I can live with it until I get the chance to cut it again. Which, might not be too long. I'm going back for his next test on Saturday, and he says that if I still don't like it by then, his wife will give me my own personal haircut all for free. I'm very excited about that.

I've been thinking of what I want done with hair for a while now. Even before that horrible haircut. What I am leaning towards right now... meaning what I REALLY, REALLY want to do is crop it and dye it off-white. Either that or copper. Being completely serious here. I want it one of these colors (the lighter ones) or a shade of copper and then cut it like so(sides) and so(top) - one of them. (None of those are all that close to what I want, but it's good enough for now.) I'm kind of designing my own. Thoughts? I really do want it. for the excitement and the drama and the coolness factor. And I think it would look good on me. I just don't know if I would regret cutting it that short. It would take a while to re-grow, even for me. So it's a big step.

Any comments would be enjoyed. Especially since this will theoretically take place in a week.

We all know I have changed. All of us change - have changed. I think the changes in me have happened mainly in the past year. I've become more outspoken and aggressive. In bad ways and in good. My mindset has changed. Main beliefs have stayed, but a few have wavered and swayed. I think differently now and I act differently. I speak differently. These changes are most likely to stick with me for a while now - if not the rest of my life, and I'm okay with that.

I just hope everyone else is. The relationships I have with my friends are likely to change. I'm not trying to sound conceited here. "Oh, when I change everything changes". No, not like that. I'm saying it could have an effect on the relationships I have with people, and I hope they are okay with it. I don't want to lose anyone.

+ AVATAR IS COMING TO THEATERS ON FRIDAY! -love-

+ I don't think I have enough food to make it through the week. So lunches will be cut out.

+ My lips are so effing chapped they dry out my mouth, and balm doesn't seem to be doing shit for them. I miss Burts.

+ It finally snowed in Victoria. For a whole 10 MINUTES! So exciting. Gives me a very, very, very small taste of what's at home.

+ I bought chips. and Sugar crisp.

+ I wish I could fly.

+ My cell phone is bugging me in various ways. I kind of want a different one. I wonder how I could make that happen.

+ If anyone feels like sending me a virtual hug, please do so. Or if you stalk me in real life, I'd be okay with actual hugs, too.

~K.L.

say something~