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7.14.2012
My door is open because it's so warm outside. I had all these bugs in my room, buzzing around, bumping into me mid-flight, annoying me to death, so I turned on my AirCon, which made outside the hottest place for them, and then all flew away. Genius, Kate, genius.
I've realized that tumblr has taken over my life in ways I never imagined it would. And I'm o.k. with that. If anyone reads this blog, and I high doubt anyone does, then please do not waste your time with my ramblings, and instead move onto my tumblr here. There's much less complaining and daily life and more pictures of beaches and skateboards and sexy men.
And now, without further explanation, I'm going to change my blogskin (again), and post about some odd stuff...
Lately, I've been wondering how it would feel to be Bi. Yes, I know, "Um, Kate. Whattheeff?". But, alas, I am serious. It's easy enough to wonder about doing, and less easy to, well, practice, I suppose. I've always been attracted to men, that is a given. They are sexy and masculine and I have this unhealthy attraction to egoism and toned abs and mustaches. And yet, I've also always thought that women are gorgeous creatures. I've no problem admitting that I find certain women attractive. I've checked out asses and breasts and thought to myself, "Man, that girl is hot". I'm sure I'm not the first straight woman to say that, and I'm not the first to watch lesbian porn, yet I've found myself thinking more and more about whether or not there's a possibility that I could be Bi. Not gay, no, certainly not completely. I'm attracted to both sexes.
I've dabbled in kissing women, and I've gone to 2nd base on multiple occasions, and it's fun, for sure. The only problem is vagina. I mean, I barely like looking at my own vagina, let alone someone Else's. The thought of having to go down on a girl freaks me out. And that's why I just haven't openly searched for a relationship with another woman. Breasts, heck yes. Asses, heck yes. Vaginas, hell no.
I'm definitely attracted to men more, though, so perhaps I shall be forever stuck at 2nd base when it comes to women. I really don't know. Either I'm Bi, or not. Either is fine with me. These thoughts have just been wandering around in circles in my brain. Figured I could at least put it out there. Ponder with a post, as it were. And I guess I'll just have to live and be my crazy self and see what happens.
(Scratch that bit about the bug triumph. A horde of mosquitoes has invaded my oasis. Go away you pesky pests! Ugh.)
On a happier note: I have a tan! This is remarkable, as I am usually classed at the whitest chick ever, and now I'm not! Hallelujah. Praise Rah. I'm on my way to a nice golden-brown, and I have a discomforting tan-line on my thighs when my cutoffs end. Tomorrow I'm going to the beach to lay in the sun and blend myself into gorgeousness. Hm, maybe I'll stop by Scoops and treat myself to ice-cream too... Yummmm.
I need a camera. This is non-negotiable. If you own a camera (and by you I mean nobody, because nobody ever reads this) and are thinking about selling it or giving it away, then please please please contact me and let me take it off your hands for you. I want to take photos every day of my life, and I haven't been able to, and it's making me sad whenever I want to and can't. SO please, once again, lemme have it, yes?